A New Day A New Diet

So I am doing this HCG diet thing in the hopes that I will finally, after trying every diet plan available to me, be able to lose weight. I spent the entire weekend eating everything I wanted and am now constrained to a 500 calorie a day diet.

Now, while eating everything you want sounds great, in theory, it is actually horrible. The worst possibly torture I can imagine doesn't compare to the tortuous task of eating. I thought, "Hey, I get to eat every sweet thing I can in an effort to gain the 6-8 lbs the doctor wants me to gain, this'll be GREAT!" Yeah, no. By then end of the first day during which I ate every 30 mins per doctors orders, I went to bed feeling more full than I ever have in my life. All I wanted to do was throw up just so I could sleep but I gamely kept all of the food in my stomach and drifted off to dreamland. I awoke the next morning still full. I didn't think I could wake up STILL full but I did.

I figured, okay, one more day of this and it will be over, hopped on the scale and I managed to gain 5 lbs! w00t! Was I ever excited, only 3 lbs to go, this would be a breeze. I took my shower and I got some cereal (high fat with whole milk no less) and ate it, then felt ill. But I pushed on. Ate some twinkies and some ice cream and some candy bars, drank a soda, ate some nachos... at some point I think I blacked out.

I mean, obviously I don't eat great or I wouldn't be as heavy as I am, but, in all honesty, I actually eat a lot better than most of the skinny people I know. I eat a lot of fruits and veggies and try to cook from fresh. Two days of eating sweet fattening food and I don't think I could do it again. The thought of sugar actually makes me a little ill. I had a hard time drinking my tea because it is sweet (cinnamon and cloves, yummy!). I got on the scale this morning and it told me I lost 2 lbs. I decided, fuck it, I simply can't go through another day eating whatever happens to come my way. It just isn't possible. So... I am going to fudge the numbers and go on the 500 calorie diet which appeals to me much more. lol.

So now I am eating chicken and salad, and I like it. I am full and I don't want anything else. I can't abide the thought of eating anything sweet and sticky. bleh. If only I had known years ago that all I had to do to kill my sweet tooth was spend a weekend eating sweet things until I was ready to die I wouldn't be in this position now. However, onward and upward, at least I don't have any cravings at the moment. Now I just have to drink a gallon of water a day, which isn't a lot until you are thinking about it, and I should be okay.

Wish me luck, hoping to lose the 30 lbs as advertised! I figure if I can shock my body into losing the weight I will be able to lose more in the long run, but I don't think I can do another round of HCG simply because of the "pig-out days". Oye.

Moral of the story: Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it. In my case it was doctor sanctioned eating and I don't want it again. =D