It's cloudy, snowy, cold, gray, and yuck. To top it off I feel fat, and I am hungry and full of water at the same time. It's seriously pissing me off. I've been starving myself for two weeks and I am exhausted and all I want is just to order a damn pizza and some soda and gorge myself until I fall over.
I don't want to give up. Rephrase... I won't give up. I know it's working, and way faster than I could have expected but I don't know. I must be losing weight because the scale says so. I suppose I'm just too close to the problem is all.
I miss going out and getting drunk enough to dance, I miss calling my friends and saying, "Hey, lets grab some pizza and watch crappy movies and veg out!" I'm just so bleh.
Meh... I'm going to bed so I can stop thinking about food.
Hope you had some pleasant dreams and are now enjoying a great day!
ReplyDeleteRYN: I'm glad you think thinking is a good and enjoyable thing. :-)
ReplyDelete"Sometimes I feel like we are only out here reiterating ourselves to ourselves. Is it really pointless, or is there still hope?"
ReplyDeleteAs I once said long ago, "We might not be the straw that breaks the camel's back - but it's just as important to be one of the earlier straws that makes the last straw possible."
I've changed too many minds over the course of the last 10 years to give in to hopelessness. But there are also others things I want to do besides deconvert the masses. I'm glad people like Greta have come along to more than take up the slack!